chia ming & me before STPM results (morning).. hehe

11 MARCH 2008!!!
Even though 11 March 2008 had already passed for few days but only until today I am free to sit down and write my blog. These date was like a death date for me. STPM results release on that day. Can you imagine 2 days before the results I couldn’t sleep for whole night. IS WHOLE NIGHT!!! Actually I do not know why I couldn’t sleep. I didn’t even think of my results but somehow I couldn’t sleep. I try to drink milk to sleep like what chia ming told me but it did not works on me either. No choice I have to guling guling on my bed till morning. Worst thing again happen on me. My stomach start to cramp the next morning. Pain like hell. I can feel that I am going to fainted too. Some more I am still working. It pain until the next morning. This is what people told me, you must be stressful and worried about your result. I was thinking maybe lar. STPM results really make my whole life mad. Not like SPM results. Last time during SPM results I never been so panic and nervous before like today.
On the real day of my STPM results that is on 11 March 2008, I was sosososo sad.. It was my shock and sad day. Actually all this while I expect I can get a good results as in 2A and 2B. Getting 2A is not that greedy I thing. Maybe all this while I am too confident of myself. I cannot blame anyone. I should blame myself for being to confident on my results or exam. My results turn out in the other way wrong than I expect. It is really bad. For others, they think that it is already good. As long as there is no C in my results than it is fine. I do not think so. Getting not more than 2A or 2A is a bad result for me. It is very very hard for me to get the course that I want to. I really can’t take it when I open my results. I cry like mad. Is so sad to get these results. Everyone including teachers and my friends keep telling me that my results already is good and you sure can enter university. Actually sometimes I feel this console is very insulting to me. I know that they are actually trying to make me happy and console me but sometimes it is like…. Dunno how to explain. Each time my relatives or my friends ask me about my results, I really can’t take it. I surely cry after I talk to them. It is so sad. I nearly cry the whole day. Kind of bad mood when go to work the next day. Maybe I should try even harder last time. No point to regrets now. As all my friends advice me, your future is not only based on your stpm results. The only thing I hope now is to get a good university and a good course to study too. I already know that I already disappointed both my parents. I do not want them to be so disappointed on me. They hope that I can study out of Malaysia but don’t think I can get Singapore scholarship to fulfill their dreams.. Pray heart this time.. Good luck everyone for their application.. Hope I can get in the same university as my fiends.. WinksJ